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November 16, 2004
I Will Hide Them In My Heart
I wrote a long post this morning. It was over a page long, but I knew when I started on it that it could never be published on this site. Too many people that know me personally read this site. 99% of them have never left a comment, but I know that they are there in the shadows reading me and even enjoying some things that I have to say. That’s a good thing for me to know. I just have to curb my words sometimes.
Writing is a wonderful outlet for me; especially writing on the computer. That way I can vent out my feelings and then delete everything that I have written and there is no paper copy. Oh how I wish that I could get back some of the silly things that I wrote years ago! They would go straight into the shredder I can assure you. It can be damaging enough to say things aloud when you are in a state of anger; writing those feelings down is much worse I believe. Years later when the air has long cleared, you go back and read some of those angry thoughts and they seem utterly stupid and meaningless.
This morning I wrote out of frustration about an employer that I am getting to know through the grapevine. He has made some changes that affect me directly and I don’t appreciate them. I wish that I could have shared these thoughts with you, however if read by the wrong person, they could have gotten someone very close to me into trouble. Never fear though! That storm has subsided for now. Maybe I can tell you about it some day over coffee.
Posted by tami at November 16, 2004 4:00 PM
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Oh Tami, I think we all know that feeling so well, you are right to feel that time changes things - or at least one's feelings about them. Keep strong.
Posted by: Miss L at November 16, 2004 4:04 PM
I've done the same thing myself. It *is* therapeutic; I've laid many an emotional ghost to rest by purging my thoughts on my blog only to delete it all before publishing. Sometimes you just have ot have the release of it or else you'll explode! Who'd have thought blogging would turn out to be such good therapy :)
Posted by: Lynn at November 16, 2004 5:07 PM
I understand.
Posted by: Lynne at November 17, 2004 11:50 AM